Stories

Everybody have their own stories to tell.

Some are plain and boring.

Some are more extraordinary than others.

Some are just pure tragedy.

What's your story?

Do you think I care?

Stories we care enough to listen and care enough to make an effort to make it a better story are stories worth knowing.

I reaffirmed the saying, what you see may not always be the truth.

Again, today.

我不懂

我不懂

认识了你是好是坏？！

我不懂

不坚持是对是错？！

我不懂

放下是解脱还是遗憾？！

是你让我认识了甜蜜与期待。。。

也是你让我明白了失望与无奈。。。

若我愿坚持，我该怎么做？

若我不，时间要当我好友当多久呢？

解脱的滋味我不懂。。。

遗憾的苦涩我尝了。。。

我不懂，能如何让它从我心怀内散开？！

Au revoir Janvier

Goodbye, I say to the month of January 2011.

Thank you for being the last I need to see from you.

What you've gave me is more than enough, it will really be nice of you if you never visit again.

One can only take so much at a time.

1st Jan: Not going to France in Feb. Not going well with Christian.

2nd Jan: Dad got admitted into hospital, got into a fight with mom.

3rd Jan: Lost the tutor job.

4th Jan: Found out that I owed the bank RM15,000.00.

5th Jan: Lowest point in my life whereby I felt the lady who offered me to stand under the umbrella while crossing the road was the nicest person ever and wanted to lunged myself to her and cry on her shoulder. Too dramatic, I know. But, can you imagine?

6,7,8th Jan: Living life having a horrible feeling in my gut, fearing that today will be a worst day.

9th Jan: Big blow in the head. Mom was suspected cancer again. Next appointment in 27th Jan.

16th Jan: He said he cant do distance, I merely said okay. I was in a stage whereby I don't care shit bout anything anymore.

22nd Jan: Rest in Peace, Genie. May all the best wishes go to your family.

23rd Jan: He said he misses me and I've not contacted him for the longest time ever(not true). Why must he be like this? I am cool with being sad, why can't he just let me be sad ALONE?

27th Jan: Texted him. Doc said if antibiotic is taking effect for mom, then, it is okay. Nothing else need to be done. Useless doctor.

29th Jan: He replied and said he is free to talk on Sunday afternoon for him(which is midnight for me. Don't I need to work?)

30th Jan: We didn't talk.

J'en ai marre.

Oh Sky Oh Sky

祢是在代我流泪吗？

再一次的，我证实了（第N次)，多于一人的世界有太多变数，我无力，无能，也无权去改变。

我的心已经无力再为你跳动了。

Blunt

Rude?

Straightforward?

Karma betul.

WAHAHAHAHA.

I will not be defeated

'A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him.'

David Brinkley

For all the bitterness I've suffered today, I'll taste the sweetness in another day.

Hopefully, not too far in the future.

For those who've thrown bricks at me today, thank you for making me a person who sustained and bear more pain.

For you who are pretentious and unreasonable, I am deeply sorry for the person you've become.

Thank you for setting me at a different pedestal from you.

There will be no capable when there are no incapable.

Wait you see.

Quote of the Day

"Please understand that there is no one depressed in this house; we are not interested in the possibilities of defeat; they do not exist."

Queen Victoria

It's all in the mind.

i will not be defeated.

At the very least, not without a fight.

Shangyu and I

There are 2 random conversations we have that are worth recording for the purpose of reminiscing in the future.

Conversation A:

One random evening, he called me on my cell and asked how was my day.

My mood is immediately lifted to a heighten level from the moment I heard his voice over the receptor.

Danielle: Hi, Shangyu, why do you call me? Miss me much?

Shangyu: Yes, I miss you. Very much.

Danielle: Ooooo....how sweet!!!! What is it that make you call me anyways?

Shangyu: You wrote down on my schedule the other day that I have to call you before I go to bed. I am doing what you wrote.

Danielle: You are really doing what I wrote, even when I wrote it for fun?! I am so happy, let's go for a movie. On me. When are you free?

Shangyu: Monday? (the next day is Monday.)

Danielle: Monday? Too bad, I can't make it tomorrow. I made plans. How bout Tuesday?

Shangyu: I am not available on Tuesday. How about the following Monday?

Danielle: I don't mind Monday, but I will have more free time on Sunday. Why not we go on Sunday? Will you be going to the farm on Sunday?

Shangyu: I only go to the farm on Saturdays these days. Sunday I am free but I prefer Monday. Monday is good. Hope to see you on Monday.

Danielle: Okay...no problem. We will talk about it again when it is nearer to date. Miss you.

Shangyu: Okay...miss you too. Bye.

Conversation B:

Aunt Christina: How are things with you recently? Boyfriend?

Danielle: No boyfriend la....

Shangyu was sitting at the backseat and I guess he heard bits and pieces of the conversation and he butted in.

Shangyu: Danielle JieJie, you have a boyfriend?

Danielle: Why? Are you jealous? All you need to do is to say that you want me to break up with my boyfriend and I will do so? So, what do you want?

Shangyu(took a min to absorb things): Okay, you break up with your boyfriend.

Danielle: But if I break up with my boyfriend, and I go out with you, I even have to pay for your movie ticket. I have no money lah....

Shangyu: Don't worry, I will collect cents. I can pay for the movie tickets.

Danielle: Okay, for you, I will break up with him. (Lol, since I have no one to breakup with, it doesn't matter.)

He is the cutest boy ever. Will love him forever.

我的未来

不会再妄想其他。

不会再等待其他。

我，什么都不要再想了。

现在的我，只要

ICSA BEST STUDENT AWARD 2010/11，

CLP BEST STUDENT OF THE YEAR 2011/12.

其他的，我什么都不再期待了。

再一次的，我证实了，多于一人的世界有太多变数，我无力，无能，也无权去改变。